This sucks!!!

Well Jake leaves tomorrow for college....He had some guys over last night as there last her ah. They had a good time tell this morning...and then the tears started...anyone that knows Jake knows he's a big stofty but looking from the outside you'd see an out going LOUD kid. With outgoing LOUD friends. But they were all reduced to a puddle of mush this morning. 4 boys, all 18, all baseball and football players, all well liked and looked up to kids, all A PART of our family, all crying because they're leaving each other for different colleges. The worse part is they come upstairs for a little support from me...yeah good idea...I was up there trying to hold it together myself that is till i saw them. I quickly turned into a puddle of mush to. So now I'm trying to tell them they'll see each other often and all that in between my sobs...I was a lot of help...NOT.
It SUCKS because I know this is part of growing up but I don't want them to leave...heck there's a 4 year college right down the road from us. Why can't they stay here...and live at home????



(tears are flowing again) I just gave Ryan D., Dan, and Ohly a hug good bye....wished them all the best, told them that Darrick and I are always here for them, and gave the Kleenex's.

I just realized why it's so hard saying good bye to these kids ( besides the fact that I love them . Jake's leaving too. Saying good bye to Shannon's friends was hard but thankfully Shannon stayed here to go to school. I didn't have to lose her too. She gradually moved out to her own house. ( I think while i wasn't looking. however I cried the night she fully moved out...you know the whole 5 blocks away) Maybe because he's the youngest or maybe because I get to see Shannon almost every day. I don't know just knowing that He's not here or even blocks away.

I don't like this, I don't like this at all. And yeah I have issues with letting go I get that. I want them to be little again, I want to wake up in the morning and find that Jake has crawled into bed with Shannon and their tucked under her "little Mermaid" comforter, sound to sleep. That's not to much to ask is it????