the light switch effect

let me explain the title. dad seems to be like a light switch this week. monday morning the light was on....he was chatting away pulled himself up to a sitting postion and just looked over all good. darrick and i left around noon, he had lots of company that day and everything looked so good. i really thought if he continued on this road we could bring him home soon. then the light switch clicked off.....mom left around 5pm and was called back to the hospice house around 630. dad was confused and irate. mom ended up spending the night and not leaving until the next afternoon. Liz and I took over at 330. by then he had calmed down but was still confused. he did finally eat a little supper and fall asleep. he slept thruogh the night with out incident. today mom said he was better for her but still confused and a bit hard to understand. he slept alot. darrick, shannon, and i visited this afternoon and he was better???? still a little hard to understand and confused. he would tell us not to leave and then would look over my shoulder and say " when did dad get here...." then look back at us and say "dad died didn't he..." and then tear up. that broke my heart!!!! he wants to come home...thats all he talked about tonight...will i get to come home...when do i get to come home....will i die here...don't let me die here...I WANT TO GO HOME....we all try to reassure him that he needs to get stronger and then we'll try to get him home.

light switches.....i prefer them to stay ON.......